November 4th is going to go down as the very last day that I will ever have to hear someone say to me "just look at you, you're fat and disgusting!"
It will be the last time I'm told I'm ugly, it will be the last day of mental anguish that I have to face at the hands of someone who swore they loved me. No more gaslighting, narcissism, abuse or control.
The ugly cry has happened and it was harsher than harsh. The realization that I subjected myself to so much negativity is beyond comprehension.
Hindsight and the recent support and love of a group of women has changed the way will forever see my worth. I have come out of this a changed and raw but empowered as fuck individual and I swear to Christ I will never allow myself to ever go back to the person I was.
Fyi... this supposed fat disgusting woman is now down 20lbs and is writing a mother fucking book!